Yesterday morning running a bit behind for Hadessa's appointment with her allergist I realized that I was a different person from the last time I visited this Dr. Don't get me wrong-he's a very nice man with lot's of years of allergy practice behind him-but still he's a doctor which can be a little intimidating. But it's been almost 9-10 months later and I'm realizing that I am not so dependent of the knowledge of doctor's anymore. My mom always told me that you have to take your health into your own hands-and she's right. Although at the time I was a teenager and didn't want to listen to ANYONE!
But I walked in armed with this thought "Whatever he says, I'm not saying yes to antibiotics and sterioids again!" I know that sounds silly but when you are seeing your child suffer you will do ANYTHING to subside that suffering. But now I know that immediate relief doesn't equal the best long term relief. Her immune system is out of balance and hyper sensitive right now so anything that supresses her immune system at this point will be disaster. Imagine an already hungry, angry, abused pitbull and you put a piece of meat 5 feet in front of it. Imagine how it will react-attacking that meat and gobbling it up fiercely. Now you try and stand between the pitbull and it's dinner. You can imagine how that pitbull would react. Her immune system is the pitbull, Hadessa is the person in between and the allergen or toxin is the meat. Hadessa is getting attacked by her immune system in a way.
...okay maybe that isn't the best analogy but you get my drift. The immune system would go beserky erky.
Back to the doctor visit. I explained to the doctor what we were doing with the detox, homeopathic meds, bathing and drinking apple cider vinegar and change in diet. I was waiting for the back lash. The arguments against what we were doing. The lack of research, blah, blah, blah. But instead I got "I'm just so ignorant about what you are doing with homeopathic medicine. But I don't blame you for trying different avenues."
WHAT? Are you serious? For real? Woah! I guess all that confidence in what we've been learning the last 9 months paid off after all. The doctor simply saw that I was in fact researched and intelligent. I in fact knew something he didn't. I had conquered the world of biased against natural remedies!
He then proceeded to half-heartedly say "I think we should do antibiotics and prednisone to calm everything down.We need to get her skin undercontrol."
WHAT? Are you serious? WOAH! Well all of my preparation for this moment came to a head. Would I follow the doctor in effort to relieve the detox effects of my baby? Would I throw away all of the work from the last year?
I looked at Hadessa and knew there was no way we're going back. We've come to far. This has been part of her faith walk as well. I had just talked to her about the following verse.
Psalm 146:3-6
Do not put your trust in princes nor in a son of man, in whom there is no help. His spirit departs, he returns to the his earth; In that very day his plans perish. Happy is he woh has the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God, who made heaven and earth, The sea, and all th at is in them; Who keeps truth foerver..."
Our hope is not in the doctors, nor mommy, nor our knowledge or conquering anyone in the medical field. It's in God! That verse I thought would help Hadessa when she got discouraged is for me as well!
"NO" I said emphatically as I stood up onto the chair! "I will not go backwards. We will go forwards into the light of God's promises. Whether or not Hadessa is healed today or a year from now we will trust our God the creator of Heaven and earth! SO I say NO and NO again!"
Well it was not exactly like that. But needless to say we are not going home with any perscriptions for meds just the appointment for the allergy test we wanted in the first place. And in a way-we did conquer...through Christ we conquered.
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