Okay...so I was starting to get a little concerned with this possible pandemic surrounding the swine flu. But I realized something a few days ago.
Let's go back to about a week ago when my microwave blew out. It was a normal day and I was heating up some lunch for the kids like...well...normal and the lights in the microwave gave one little flash and went out. Oh great! The one appliance I use more than the washer is gone, dead, kaput! Why God? Why? At first I thought "Okay-the microwave is gone. What can I learn from this?" Then I thought that the lesson I needed to learn surrounded trusting God to help me through using the conventional oven for cooking and reheating everything. But then Darye's brand new Mac was acting up and he had to use mine to do his work while his got fixed-meaning I was computerless all day for a few days. (Hence, the blip in my blogs). But it's during those few days my "why" got answered.
I was losing focus. I had been having this sense that I was slowly getting distracted from Him and more and more focused on...deep breath...getting through my life. I was moving like I was on autopilot. Breakfast, work on computer, chores, school lesson with kids, computer, nap, Hadessa's quiet time, computer, dinner, wash kids up, bed time stories,pray with kids, bed, veg. And that microwave played a starring role in preparing food every day. I hate to admit to the world but I needed to lose a couple of (very minor) things to wake-up.
What does all this have to do with the swine flu? Just that during these last couple days I have had a chance to refocus. As I focus on God other things fade in His light. I'm not saying go to la la land and don't deal with reality. But amidst the economic crises and Flu outbreak-God is still the center. He is my hope and He is our sustainer. I've still had food to put in the microwave and we were able to get darye a faster computer so he can continue working so we can buy the food I usually put in the microwave. So when I hear about the world issues-things that I cannot control-I try to get quiet and commit my worry to Him as best I can instead of burying my head into life. And I'm continuing to trust Him as I use the conventional oven for cooking and reheating everything.
Thanks for reading!
Dija
